Relaxed, Finally

This has been a phenomenally relaxing day. I didn't get dressed until 5pm – and then only because we had to walk the dogs, otherwise I don't think I would have bothered.

I spent the day cross stitching, watching some DVR'd programs and several episodes of MacGyver. Randy was right beside me, relaxing in his recliner.

Now, you might be thinking, “So, what was so different about today? This post sounds like many others you've written.” And you would be right, but not really. :)

The difference is inside me. I had a real epiphany today – I have been so tied up inside over these past few months, that I haven't really, really relaxed. Not inside. Yes, I have had many days where I haven't done much, but I think my insides have been reeling.

Today is the first day I have cross stitched with abandon. Yes, I've picked up my project here and there over the past few months, but nothing like today. Cross stitching is something I enjoy, but have to be in the right frame of mind to do. And when my brain is fried, I just can't.

But, today. Oh, I so enjoyed myself.

Today I find that I am looking forward to traveling. We leave a week from this coming Tuesday and I am excited about that. Finally.

Why now? Life has calmed down, considerably. I know that Kevin is in a good place – emotionally and physically. I see him settling into his new life and that it's good. I believe that he will be fine when we leave. So, we can go and enjoy.

I have also learned more about myself and my faith during these frazzled months. Some of it hasn't been pleasant and I've had to adjust my attitude. But, I've also had confirmation about some things and that has been wonderful.

Life is always a surprise. But, right now? It's calm and I'm enjoying it. Fully.

Until the next time . . .