I am feeling a bit stressed . . . I do not like chaos or disorganization and this has been a day of both. I left home at 8:30 this morning and didn't get home until 4pm. We had two dulcimer gigs today, both were a bit on the disorganized side and I just wasn't in the mood. I felt a bit mean so after venting a bit, I got very quiet. I just had to in order not to lose control. I think I just hit my limit.
Feeding my sense of chaos is the three week trip we embark on tomorrow. While I cannot wait to see the kids, trying to pack and organize presents and get ready to leave your home for that amount of time isn't easy. Combine that with concerns over weather issues and it's been a bit tense in our house this week. Leaving 70 degree weather for the teens and possible snow/ice seems contrary to sensible thinking.
I will be thrilled when we get to Kansas and I have hugged on Kev & Sara. Then I'll know all the chaos was worth it. And then we'll be on the road again for PA where I'll get to hug on Lins, Jason & Reagan.
It's just the unknown -- I don't do well with the unknown. Bit of a control freak, you say? YES! I am. Guess this is when I really need to trust God, huh? I know - I'm working on it.
Okay, whining is over. I don't like it when others whine, so I shouldn't be doing it either. Thanks for listening, though. :)
Next post will be from somewhere on the road - probably St. Louis, MO. Until the next time . . .